Compulsion

I love growing my hair long.

Not because I love it or it’s beautiful.

But to see those long hairs

Fall on the ground

So lightly and quietly

Without making a sound

When I cut.

And it’s an urge

I must do!

I love cutting my long hair myself. 

Because it gives a tremendous pleasure of letting go,

And looking forward for tomorrow.

Because I can cut something 

Of myself without bleeding and hurting.

And it doesn't hurt at all.

I can make it too messy

I can make it too short

I can make it symmetrical

I can make it whatever to feel...

With cutting each lock-

I let go of the simultaneous feeling of being sad, 

Worst in anger and depressed. 

Momentarily

I look at the mirror- content and happy!

 If you want to be reborn let yourself die ~~ (Lao Tzu)